Wednesday morning,grandma was leaving us...
the last time i saw u was 6am tat day,
sat noon sent to hospital,
sunday tat day when i saw u,
u looks better than when u was in hse,
i thought tat u edi recovered...
i thought u still can accompany us at least 1 month...
bt in monday midnite, u started breathing hard,
cardioacceleration up to 170 per minute...
u looks veli suffer tat time...
u look at me,like got something wan 2 tell me,
i try 2 understand wat r u talking,
bt i cant...
izzit u wan 2 tell me tat u veli suffer??
soli grandma,i cant help u tat time,
i dunno wat can i do,
jz standing bside u n looking at u...
tue nite,i cant sleep well d hold nite,
i scared my hse phone rang...
n u oso din closed ur eyes till wed morning...
i thought tat i still can c u after my class...
bt,it's too late...
u edi leaving us at 9:50am.
after i call my daddy,i oni noe tat u edi passed away...
if i din call my daddy when class breaking tat time,
i still dunno wat is going on...
the feeling is same as last time,
try to control my emocation,
bt i cant...my mind cant stop thinking bout u...
wat can i do??jz accept it...
u felt hapi 2 choose tis way...
although u n grandpa was nt here,
bt i can felt tat u all still bside me...
u all r oways in my heart...
婆婆：
从小到大，您都特别疼我...
可能因为您在我小时候曾经照顾过我一段时间...
我们一起睡觉，一起谈天，
还有我最记得您帮我包“汉堡包”...
每当我被人欺负时，
您一定会帮我出头...
我永远都不会忘记那一段快乐的日子...
爸爸告诉我，
从以前您就很担心我...
因为我和哥哥妹妹们不同，
我不爱讲话，
有什么事都会收在心里，
以前我是个爱哭包，
连要哭也不哭出来，
一直忍在心里...
那时侯您就会在我身边一直叫我哭出来...
如今，您已经不在我的身边，
已经没有机会再喂您吃东西，
没有机会听你重复又重复的故事，
重复又重复问我的问题...
您选择离开我们，
其实我们应该替你觉得开心，
因为您终于可以脱离痛苦...
您也走了一段很漫长的路，
很累了...是时候停下来休息...
虽然我们都很舍不得，
但也是时候放下了...
我知道您和公公最大的愿望是希望我们全部都乖乖听话，
努力读书，
而您最希望能够看到我们戴四方帽...
可惜，您只能看到哥哥戴...
我答应您我一定会乖乖听话，努力读书，
我一定会读到大学毕业，戴着四方帽给您们看...
您安息吧～
公公婆婆，
您们现在会在哪里呢？？
我在这里很想念您们...
jz get my PLKN certificate 2day...
they post it to me...
thought have to wait till august oni can get my certificate =)
the certificate nt nice de lo,
jz a few words den a signature by dunno who lai de....
haha...my mummy oso say like tat...
bt nvm la,jz a sweet memory to me...
不知道为什么这两天都没有心情，总觉得很烦，心里闷闷的，好像有心事，
可是又不知道为什么会这样...
没有原因...
很久也没有试过这个心情了...
上一次应该是已经两年前的事了...
到底发生了什么事？？
我也不知道...
Done my 5 minute speech public speaking 2day...
can say veli bad...
i felt tat i will fail my 5 minute speech...
too nervous when i present my topic,
n i rush veli fast...
when i finish presenting,
teacher 1st question ask me,
wat is ur feel nw??
sure nervous la...haha...
take a breath...it's over...
ya....it's over...
i thought tat teacher will giv comment after both of us finish our topic,
bt not...teacher giv comment after i finish presenting my topic,
tats y make me nervous after i listen de comment giv by teacher to d previous person...
if i m de 1st person mayb i will not as nervous as 2day...haha...
watever la...it's over...
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刚去婆婆家探望她，
她好像在昏迷状态，
眼睛也好像没有力挣开，
说话也没有力气，
整个人越来越弱，越来越瘦...
看到她就很心痛...
都不知道要让上帝带她走还是留她继续在我们身边...
让她多留一天，
只会带给她多一天的痛苦，
多一天的折磨...
可是我真的很舍不得她...
我知道有一天她将会离开我,
那时后在我身边又失去了一个亲人...
人到了某一个阶段总会是这样，
身边的人随时都会离开我们，
只是不知道会是几时发生的事...
今天永远都不知道明天会发生什么事，
趁他们还在身边时好好珍惜身边的人...
孝顺真的要趁早，
不然回过头时已经太迟了...
今天在车遇到一位很伟大的妈妈，
她对他的孩子多么的好...
看到她突然就有一种感触，
希望他的孩子长大后会好好珍惜有一位这么好的妈妈...
婆婆一天比一天瘦...
每天吃不下东西,
连讲话也没有力气,
跟她说话也不应我,
现在就好像在半昏迷状态,
随时都会离开我们...
身为家人的,
为什么不在这个时候多去看看她呢??
为什么不趁有得看到她的时候去多看她??
每天在家求神拜佛希望她会平安无事,往生会过得好一点,
不如多去看看她不是更好吗??
我知道我没有资格说话,
这样会伤了你的心...
对不起!!
我只是想把心底话说出来而已...
Start my UTAR life tis week...
new environment,new fren & everythings new...
the 1st week I in utar,
i edi can imagine tat hw stress in d collage life...
all ENGLISH!!MY GOSH..
many assignment to do,public speaking & the math!!
OMG!!most stress subject is MATH....
all ADD MATH la....
dunno hw 2 do...
have 2 study frm 0...
when d teacher teach in front thr,
i jz sitting thr n listen bt i dunno wat crabs r teacher talking bout...
sumore d teacher dunno hw 2 teach...
jz talk, talk n talk ..
n go through veli fast...
sumore din explain hw 2 do...haiz...
MEMANG PENGSAN LA LIKE TAT!!
chapter 1 edi dunno hw 2 do,
d other chapter reali cant think bout it =(
dunno hw 2 take exam tis semester..
PUBLIC SPEAKING!!!
OMG!!!
COMPUTER STUDIES,
dunno hw to read...
memang thick like shit...
dunno hw 2 memorize all those things...
ECONOMIC &ACCOUNTING,
although i gt study b4,
bt still blur,
cz nw all translate 2 ENGLISH!!
1 day d lecturer talk 1 chapter...
IMAGINE!!
last time use 2 years to study all d f4 n f5 things,
bt nw hav 2 study both f4 f5 things+new things within 10+ weeks...
sumore all english...
IMAGINE...
nw i can imagine hw stress chibi last time...
i can feel it nw...
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finish abreacting...
although is veli tough 4 me,
bt huey ping,
man man lai la...
tis will b a challenging life 4 u,
tis jz d starting oni...
I CAN DE!!!
ya...i hav 2 study veli hard frm nw =)
